Stop Cribbing….

A voice within started to monotonically say these words to me, “Stop cribbing….and the world will become a better place”. I hate to admit it, but it is quite true.

I am not getting into the ‘who and what’ behind the source of the voice and this is completely left to the discretion of the reader.

I was on a frustration streak thanks to my work. This did not start recently. I think it did start way before I can remember but the after-effects are coming out now in bursts and spurts.

Many of my friends think I am quite funny when I am frustrated. Yeah, one does end up doing stupid stuff during this period. I feel my confidence level just goes tremendously high when I am frustrated because this is when my mind actually speaks out.

The work that I did for 5 months in London was good, even though I did not work in a team, it made me learn how to go about doing things on my own, who to approach to get information and most importantly, how to approach people. When I look back, I realize I absolutely did not know A, B and C how to approach people. In the initial days, I would not be surprised if I angered a couple of individuals thanks to my approach. But all said and done, I feel I have changed a lot and it was a good learning experience. The fact of not working in a team, many a time, made me feel lonely. I did spend time with other teams but it is not easy to catch hold of them when I am free and vice versa. However, this loneliness was not very evident until I came back to Chennai to continue my work.

I end up in projects where only a single resource is required. This sucks big time. I end up going for breakfast, lunch, tea and sometimes even dinner on my own. I sometimes try to pull some people to come along with me, but not very successful at that.

Gradually, I stopped cribbing to myself. Maybe I was fed up with the same or maybe it was because of the absolute bliss I enjoyed in solitude. I have always enjoyed observing people around me and I enjoy this to the fullest now. I get time to reflect on some thoughts, many of them good ones, which results in a smile on my face.

I stopped cribbing…..and the world became a better place for me to live in again.

Cheers!