This year has been many farewells for me. Many of my friends either got married or about to get married. Many quit their jobs for higher studies or are at an onsite location either in the US or in Europe.
I guess the small mistake I made was to allow my mind to think that all the fun that we were having after passing out from college would last forever. I knew of the same at some level...these thoughts were very much present in the corner of my mind, refusing to come out to the front and make me realise that not all these people around me are going to be with me forever.
I realise that my school days and college days were indeed days of absolute bliss. All one had to worry was “Hope the exam paper is not too tough”, “Did I pass?”, “Will I get into trouble for not doing my homework?” etc. Almost every year I get to see my friends when I graduate to the next year in school or college. Then it is all about new books, new teachers, curricular activities, etc. Nothing really changes. I wish time stood still. At least that way I could look on forever at some of the best memories of my life.
Now every year something new happens. Of course, that factor is exciting but deep down inside there is this feeling of your friends drifting away because each individual is busy with their own life. In school and college, everyone led just one life. Now each individual’s life is about so many things or rather complications that we have no other choice other than to let loose the reins of friendship so that it lasts instead of disappearing.
I have slowly learnt to accept this fact and move on. I have improved in many ways and I can deal with farewell situations better than before. I do not get upset if my friends do not call me as often as they used to. More appropriately, I have learnt to get over it soon. But one thing is yet to change……the small stream of tears that at times starts flowing instantly down my face needs to completely dry up whenever I see myself being moved far away from all those who make my life memorable.
I guess the small mistake I made was to allow my mind to think that all the fun that we were having after passing out from college would last forever. I knew of the same at some level...these thoughts were very much present in the corner of my mind, refusing to come out to the front and make me realise that not all these people around me are going to be with me forever.
I realise that my school days and college days were indeed days of absolute bliss. All one had to worry was “Hope the exam paper is not too tough”, “Did I pass?”, “Will I get into trouble for not doing my homework?” etc. Almost every year I get to see my friends when I graduate to the next year in school or college. Then it is all about new books, new teachers, curricular activities, etc. Nothing really changes. I wish time stood still. At least that way I could look on forever at some of the best memories of my life.
Now every year something new happens. Of course, that factor is exciting but deep down inside there is this feeling of your friends drifting away because each individual is busy with their own life. In school and college, everyone led just one life. Now each individual’s life is about so many things or rather complications that we have no other choice other than to let loose the reins of friendship so that it lasts instead of disappearing.
I have slowly learnt to accept this fact and move on. I have improved in many ways and I can deal with farewell situations better than before. I do not get upset if my friends do not call me as often as they used to. More appropriately, I have learnt to get over it soon. But one thing is yet to change……the small stream of tears that at times starts flowing instantly down my face needs to completely dry up whenever I see myself being moved far away from all those who make my life memorable.
2 comments:
You've put it so beautifully well :) I couldn't agree more to all this. Especially 'cos we just have been together through one such phase together.
Love u! :)
you are becoming more emotionally stable... good.. and tomorrow is my last day in the blog world... try commenting on my last post... will be back in a year or two
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